Its Worthy , because Its You

Chapter Two

Few days after the incident .

“morning sweetheart , wants some tea ?” Mrs. Eunji asking See Yan who just wake up from sleep , walking down the stairs in her pink pajamas .

“can I have some coffee instead of tea ?” See Yan requested .

“of course , love.” Mrs. Eunji replied .

“Owh ya , Mum . Siwon texted me last night saying that he is going to fetch me out today . But I don’t feel like it , can you please phone him later on my behalf ? “ See Yan was trying to avoid meeting anyone after the incident .

“are you sure you don’t want to have a walk outside ? It’s a fine day . You should get some sunlight .” Mr. Heechul who is at the side commenting on it .

“Dad , im just tired . Let me hang myself in my room will do . “ See Yan have a quick sip of her coffee and grab the magazine of the week , then head back into her room .

Mr.Heechul look at his wife and sign . Well , maybe her daughter really need times to relax and rearrange her mood .

“annyeonghasaeyo . Siwon imida , can I come in ?” Siwon standing at the entrance .

“nehh , Siwon argh , I told you See Yan don’t feel like going out . Why do you still take the trouble from traveling down here .” Mrs. Eunji approach Siwon from the kitchen while taking off her apron .

“erm , Ahjumma .. Am I allow to enter See Yan’s room . I just want to have some talk with her . It won’t take every long time.” Siwon explaining why he appear .

Yes , its for See Yan .

“Sure son . go ahead . Do you want some cookies ?” Mrs. Eunji showing off her hospitality .

See Yan heard the soft knock on her door . She is still in her pajamas , lying on her bed , staring at the white ceiling of her room .

She did not reply to the knocking of the door , she remain silence .

“its me , I know you are awake . can you please open the door for me .” siwon asked politely .

“just a minute , im in my pajamas .” See Yan trying to delay the time on answering the door .

“Kencana , its not like I have not see you in pajamas before . just open the door .” Siwon answer softly although he knows See yan trying to delay everything . Yea , Siwon is more than patient when it comes to See Yan .

The door knob turns , See Yan standing at the door . No expression , no sign of emotions . its just a shell there .

“Can I enter , I need to talk to you.” Siwon repeat it over and over again , yet no sign of frustration in his sentences .

“is there a need ? my room is in a mess .” See Yan answer , looking on the floor .

‘Yes , Urgently . I don’t care how your room is . What I care is your right now .” Siwon starts to raise his volume .

See Yan turn away from the door and sit down on her bed . This is the first time Siwon see See Yan’s room in a total mess . Pillows were everywhere . Mugs and food packet is all over the floor . Picture of Seulong and her was lying on the bed . Some were torn , Some was faded because of water mark . Is that water mark or tears mark ?

“Listen here , life goes on with or without him . There is tons of people around you cares for you , stop locking yourself in the room and thinks that the end of the world ! The sun still rise every day . If you gonna keep locking yourself in this room , either you’ll die of depression or you parents gonna suffer from worrying you .”

Siwon look at See Yan who is sitting on the bed , twisting the end of her pillow .

Siwon continues “If you remain like this , nothing is going to change . HE WONT BE BACK. Stop making your world revolves around him . For the past 3 years you did that , you ignore everyone around you when he is around . but im telling you , I have enough of this . You need a life , a normal human life . He is gone so let it be . why must you put all your hope around him ? I don’t….”

“Yahh , stop screaming .” See Yan look at Siwon . She is tearing again . Siwon’s heart soften , he keep quite and let See Yan continue .

“What will you do if your wife run-away on your wedding day . In front of the whole bloody crowd you need to admit that your husband dump you for no reason and he is now disappear into thin air . What will you feel ? Stop saying my world revolves around him . That is because I love him . He means more than a fucking man to me , he controls my emotions , my feelings . Im so use to him being at my side . Its 3 years , 1095 days . How can you tell me just to let it go after all the memories we had for tons fucking moments together . Have you ever experience LOVE ? you are hooking around with the single title and now you are lecturing me ! YAH , who are you ?”

See Yan is in total tears , she is using the biggest effort to talk . She stares at Siwon . her face is as red as a tomato . Every inch under her skin is trying to shout back , trying to protect the man he had love dearly even though he left him just like that .

Maybe , this is a way to release her emotions that had been accumulate up days after days .

“you know what , Im sick of you ! sick of you acting like you understand me . Do you ? every time I look at you I think of the bastard ! both of you were always by my side , one is the man I love the most and one is like a big brother to me . both of you never left me . but now , look at this situation , All I can see is you . You turning here and there , behind , In front of me ! Where is him ? I can’t even see his shadow ! I miss him , I really do .” See Yan lean forward , lie flat on her bed . “every second im trying to hate him , hate him for leaving me here in this hell . But I just cant . Im trying so hard but I cant hate him .. I love him .. that’s a Fact , I love him” See Yan mutters …

Siwon is in tears together with her now . That’s the first time he cry in front of her .

He stood up . Looking at her who is crying all her energy out . And He said :

“You know why I have not been in love , because im loving someone so hard . The person just don’t see it . I wait for that person to break off with her boy friend , but they didn’t In fact , they made their way to engagement . And Finally , the groom didn’t appear on the wedding day . I should feel happy because I finally got a chance . But no , the girl had hide herself in her own world . I try so hard to open her heart once again , but she refuse to let me in . I thought she may need time , but in the end . Im just wasting my time waiting and waiting . Right before Seulong’s appearance between us , I already knows I had fall for you . But I guess , im just a fool . Standing at the same place , waiting for you to turn back to me when he had left . You didn’t . I never expect your love in return , but please .. Be fair to me . at least give me a chance . Im sorry for disturbing .”

Siwon turns away , walk down the stairs . wiping his tears roughly and just walk out like that . Get on his car , and he left .

See Yan was stunt . She never knows Siwon had a crush on her . When Siwon , Seulong and her , 3 of them together . All She bother was to boast about her love with Seulong , She never thinks of Siwon’s feelings . She is now totally lost . Had Siwon just confessed ? Is that what he hide in him for years ? Why did he keep that for so long ? How did he hide all his feelings so well ?

Tons of questions running in her head . Well , tears still drip down from her eyes , but its no longer for the man who had left , is for the one who has always been there .